Back to the angels, color chaos, and more!

Hi y’all,

Welcome back to the blog! A very belated happy new year to you all. It’s been a while since my last post—things got crazy with the holidays, new job/s, and my teaching schedule—but I’m back!

First, I’ve got two happy announcements to share. One is that I made my first sale on Saatchi since I started using it last spring. For those of you who don’t know, Saatchi is the world’s largest online gallery. Here’s the lucky winner:

“Guarded Sunset” - 12’’ x 12’’ - oil on canvas

It found a home with a collector in Boulder, about 30 minutes north of us in Denver. In case you, dear reader, are interested in a piece yourself, feel free to check out my Saatchi page, shoot me an email to inquire about a piece or a commission, or peruse the Shop & Learn tab for more goodies.

The second piece of good news is that I have an interview out with VoyageDenver, a magazine that tells the stories of local creatives and entrepreneurs. We talked craft, how I got into the arts, challenges I’ve faced, plans for the future, and more! You can check out the interview here.

Now for the good (read: nerdy) stuff. Since the weather has gotten cold and snowy, I’ve been back in the home studio. If I can work up the nerve/buy finger warmers, I might do a winter plein air piece or two, buuut for now I’m staying inside.

As a result, I’ve turned my attention back to the Paradise Lost illustration project. In case you don’t remember, I left off with a few studies of Satan from Book I, where he and the other rebellious angels have recently been cast into hell.

I started off with a conte and gouache drawing:

Study of Satan, Paradise Lost, Book I - 16’’ x 12’’ conte and gouache on paper

then did a study on Procreate, where I though through some of the color problems:

Color study of Satan, Paradise Lost, Book I - Procreate

and now, finally, I’ve finished the full oil painting:

Satan Stands to Address His Legions, Paradise Lost, Book I - 30’’ x 24’’ - oil on canvas

One of my main challenges in this painting was staying true to the textual references, which are… tricky. Milton describes hell as being a “dungeon horrible” surrounded by a great, fiery furnace with flames that cast “[n]o light, but rather darkness visible”. Satan also walks on “burning marl” (a kind of stone). So… how does one create flames that cast no light? And how do stones burn without casting light? And how exactly are we supposed to see Satan if there’s no light shining on him?

For those of you who aren’t big painting nerds, rendering an object (i.e., making it look three dimensional) with no light source is… basically impossible. It kind of defies the laws of physics. To get around that, I decided that, given his recent fall (and God’s omniscience in the epic), we could afford a little bit of light from heaven still shining down on him—a way for God to keep an eye on the tricky rebel and for me to solve my physics problem. Thus the light source at the top. This also allowed to me basically ignore whatever light the ‘burning marl’ might’ve cast.

As for the lightless flames, I started off the painting with a relatively dark background, which allowed me to make bits of pure, saturated color pop while keeping their value low (that is, make sure they stayed pretty dark too). I later toned down the background, but I’m pretty happy with the ‘lightless flames’ that poked through in the end. Here’s an early stage of the painting for comparison:

Early stage of the Satan painting

One of my other main challenges was showing Satan’s corruption through the chaos in the warms and cools. As I articulated in an earlier post, I’ve decided to show the level of an angel’s (or demon’s) corruption through the contradictions in their colors. From a distance, the Satan painting may look fairly unified, but when you get closer, you can see the warms and cools knocking against each other:

All this angel painting got me thinking… Milton says angels look this way, but what about the source material—that is, the Bible? Well, that and watching Midnight Mass on Netflix, which I totally recommend.

Turns out, it says some pretty weird stuff. After a little Googling, I found that one of the main sources of Biblical imagery comes from Ezekiel I. Ezekiel sees the heavens open up and has “visions of God”—and, rabbis and theologians have inferred, angels. But they’re not exactly the winged, Cupid-like version we’ve grown so accustomed to.

Instead, some are made of two intersecting wheels, “sparkling like topaz”, and covered in eyes. Yep, you read that right: shiny wheel eyes. That’s what angels look like. According to Maimonides, a prominent Medieval Jewish scholar and philosopher, this was actually the highest rank of angels. Here’s a quick study I worked up for them:

Study for Ezekiel’s vision - pen and ink on paper

And it only gets stranger from there. The other angels — believed to be cherubim — are a hodgepodge of humans and various animals. They have four wings, two of which cover their bodies; the other two face upwards above them. Under these wings, “on all four sides”, they have human hands. Their legs are straight and human, but their feet look “like those of a calf” and gleam “like burnished bronze.”

Perhaps the strangest part of the cherubim are their heads. Heads, plural—four, to be exact. One, facing left, is an ox head. Another, facing right, is a lion head. The other two heads are human and eagle. Ezekiel doesn’t specify where they sit in relation to each other.

This got me thinking, so I started on some studies of the animal heads and working through some of the perspective problems.

Perspective and animal studies for Ezekiel’s vision - pen and ink on paper

As you can see in my notes in the upper left, Ezekiel’s vague description of the eagle and human head create an interesting problem. If they have “four sides,” as Ezekiel mentions when describing the position of their hands and wings, and if we presume that each side gets one head and one head only, then how exactly is Ezekiel able to see all four heads at once? Shouldn’t one be facing away from him?

It’s almost as if Ezekiel is seeing multiple perspectives at once. You know, the core ingredient in Cubism? Maybe Picasso wasn’t such an innovative genius and more of a Biblical scholar. Or maybe there’s a translation issue, or the Bible just isn’t meant to be taken so literally . . .

At any rate, it’s been a fun issue to think through! To do so, I came up with a line drawing/cartoon:

Cherub from Ezekiel’s vision, study - pen and ink on paper

In conclusion, the Bible is the best source of surrealist and modernist imagery. Thank you for coming to my Ted Talk.

Alright, that’s it for this post! Thanks for reading, and keep creating!

Satan's head, Patreon, NFTs, and more!

Hi everyone, welcome back to the blog! This week, I’ve got some exciting announcements and some more work on the Milton project. First, I’m happy to announce that I’m now on Patreon! You can support at a variety of levels to get access to exclusive process photos and time-lapse videos, sneak peaks of upcoming performances, lessons and critiques, and all kinds of visual art products. Check it out, and thanks in advance to any and all supporters!

As usual, you can also find the full range of products and services I’m offering on the Shop & Learn section of the website. As of now, I’m selling originals and prints and offering private lessons, in addition to the goodies available on Patreon. I’ll be selling NFTs soon, too — more on that at the end of this post.

I’m also excited to share that I’m taking part in dancer Mei Yamanaka’s upcoming video project, “Naked Tree.” Mei’s collaborating with 15 different sound artists for the project, and I’m so happy to be one of them! I’ll be doing a short intro to our collaboration on May 9, so stay tuned for updates there! You can also get a sneak peak of the video on Patreon.

From Mei Yamanaka’s upcoming video project, “Naked Tree”

I’ve also got some exciting updates on the Milton project. I’ve been thinking more about illustrating angels, fallen and unfallen alike, from the front, as I’ve mostly been focusing on the back view til now. First up: wings.

Blue heron wings (above), angel wings with torso (below), front view, pen and ink

As with the back view, I started off by doing a study of blue heron wings, then distorted them and added the torso for the angelic version. I’ve included the back view below for comparison:

Blue heron wings (above), angel wings with torso (below), front view, pen and ink

I also worked up a Procreate study of Satan’s head. As I shared in my last post, I think the distorted anatomy study I drew is a little too alien to be anything but a very fallen Satan. Here’s a refresher of what that looked like:

Distorted anatomy study, muscles of the head and neck, pen and ink

Since I’m thinking of this as Satan at his most fallen, I got pretty wild with the colors and textures on Procreate. I also played around a lot more with layers this time, so be warned: the process video is kind of a light show.

Satan’s head, front view, Procreate

I’m happy to share that I’m turning this study into my first NFT! For anyone who isn’t familiar with NFTs, or non-fungible tokens, they’re essentially a way to create a one-of-a-kind digital copy of a piece of artwork that can be bought and sold with cryptocurrency. It’s a rapidly developing market, and I’m excited to dive into it! You can find the Satan head NFT by clicking here. Bidding starts Thursday at 5PM EST — hope you stop by and check it out!

That’s it for this week. Thanks for tuning in! Have a great week and keep creating.

Good angels, bad angels?

Hi y’all,

Welcome back to the blog! This week, I’ve been thinking through how to represent John Milton’s ideas about good and evil in paint.

As I shared in last week’s post, I’ve been working through how I might illustrate Milton’s Satan. The tricky thing is that Satan is radiant, beautiful, and, in some ways, good, but grows more distorted and tormented as the epic progresses. To get at both of these ideas, I wanted the luminosity to really pop while also using a wider, wilder array of colors, textures, and brush strokes. In the end, this is where I landed:

Satan torso, back view, oil study (finished)

After finishing the Satan torso oil study, I moved on to angel limbs. As usual, I started with a pen and ink study of the human anatomy, then distorted it. I did them both on one page this time to make the comparison a little more user-friendly:

Human arm (left) and angel arm (right), pen and ink

I started the oil study soon after completing the pen and ink drawings. To be honest, I don’t think I’d actually decided whether I was painting a good angel or a bad angel before I started painting. I’m still not finished, but I’m leaning towards good.

Angel arm, side view, oil study (WIP)

In my view, the source of sin in Milton’s universe is a combination of doubt and arrogance. Satan falls because his arrogance leads him to believe that it’s somehow a good idea to start a rebellion against an omnipotent ruler (God). He leads Adam and Eve to their fall (and to his own subsequent torture in Hell) because he doubts his ability to redeem himself. Between these two character flaws, Satan is his own worst enemy. Adam and Eve fall for similar reasons. Beguiled by Satan, they doubt God’s commandments, trusting Satan’s pseudo-logic instead.

If doubt and arrogance are the two primary sources of sin in Milton’s universe, then I think that painting a good/unfallen angel is less about keeping out the darker, more turbulent colors, brushstrokes, etc., and more about keeping the visual language consistent and organized, no matter how dark or light it gets. Because this piece is, so far at least, more traditionally organized than the Satan torso, I’m leaning towards “good angel” for this one.

I do think this study got a little too distorted to really be believable as an arm, angel or no, so, as I get ready for my next study, I’ve been thinking a lot about just how far I can distort the anatomy before it ceases to read as anatomy at all. To that end, I’ve worked up a Procreate study of an angel leg, keeping it a little closer to human anatomy than the direction I’ve been heading in for the oil arm study:

Angel leg, back view, Procreate

It’s been a few posts since I’ve shown the original pen and ink studies that the Procreate leg is based on, so I’ve included them below:

Angel legs, side view (left) and back view (right), pen and ink

Human legs, side view (left) and back view (right), pen and ink

That’s it for this week! Check back in next week for updates on the Milton project and any other art news I’ve got to share. Thanks so much for reading, and have a great week!

Contemplating Satan

Hi y’all,

Welcome to this week’s blog post! Today, I want to share my thoughts on (eventually) illustrating one of Paradise Lost’s most interesting characters: Satan.

What fascinates me about Milton’s version of Satan is how likable (and, at times, relatable) Milton makes him out to be. Before his fall from Heaven, Satan (then Lucifer, meaning “light bringer”) is the most beautiful, radiant, and eloquent angel. These same traits play a big role in his fall. He’s able to persuade other angels to join his rebellion because his eloquence makes him persuasive. His radiance and beauty lead to a very weird, incestuous affair with Sin, who springs out of his head as a fully formed goddess (for my fellow classical nerds, yes, that’s an Athena-Zeus reference).

In the end, though, it’s Satan’s pride that leads to his downfall. When he first arrives to Eden to tempt Adam and Eve, Satan has a prolonged moment of doubt. It’s my favorite monologue in the poem (beginning of the fourth book, for anyone who’s interested in reading the full thing). He confesses to the reader that “pride and ambition threw [him] down” and wishes that he had been “some inferior angel”, so that he could have “stood happy”. The problem, however, cuts deeper: “Which way I fly is hell; myself am hell; / And in the lowest deep a lower deep / Still threatening to devour me opens wide, / To which the hell I suffer seems a heaven.”

Satan’s inner torment distorts his outward appearance. As he goes through waves of rage, doubt, and despair, they “[mar] his borrowed visage”. After the fall of Adam and Eve (spoiler alert), God even turns Satan and his fellow angels-turned-demons into snakes.

I want my depiction of Satan to capture both his luminosity before the fall and his gradual distortion through pride, rage, and sadness. This is what I’ve come up with so far:

Satan torso, back view, oil study (WIP)

I’m still tinkering with it, but I like the direction so far. After the last oil study (which you can find below), I wanted to get more experimental with the brushwork, color, and texture — basically, to get more energy in the piece, spice it up a bit. As I painted, I thought more and more about Satan’s dual nature, and, eventually, the two ideas merged into one.

Angel torso, front view, oil study

Prepping for the Satanic torso involved a lot of pen and ink studies, most of which I put up in last week’s post. For comparison’s sake, I’ve included them below, along with one more I worked through before starting the oil study.

Angel torso, back view (1)

Angel torso, back view (2)

And, as always, I started with a human anatomy study, which you can find below:

Human torso, back view

That’s it for this week! I’ll be back next week with an update on the WIP oil study, some more pen and inks, and whatever other art news I have to share. Thanks for tuning in and have a great week!

Welcome! (with angels)

Hi y’all,

Welcome to the blog! In an effort to be more transparent about my process, I’ll be posting here once a week or so. Stay tuned to keep up with current artistic projects — painting, poetry, and bears, oh my.

To get started, I want to share some studies for a project I’m excited about, although it’s still in early stages: a series of illustrations for Milton’s angels from Paradise Lost. For anyone who doesn’t know, Paradise Lost is a book-length poem that John Milton wrote in the 17th century. It retells the story of the fall of Adam and Eve. The poem starts with Satan’s fall from Heaven and ends (spoiler alert) with the expulsion of Adam and Eve from the Garden of Eden.

It’s truly a great poem — a lot of work, to be sure, but one of my all-time favorites. Milton earns his place in my top five with this poem for the sentences and rhythm alone. If that’s not enough for you, it’s got torture (literally), heartbreak (figuratively), and adventure (both).

I first tried to read it a few years ago in Delhi, but ended up giving the book away to a friend. I tried again with a reading group the next year in New York, but we trailed off. Finally, two years ago, during my MFA, I managed to get through it. Third time’s the charm.

I was also studying artistic anatomy, drawing, and painting at The Art Students League of New York at the time. One passage in particular fascinated me:

”[…] for spirits that live throughout
Vital in every part, not as frail man
In entrails, heart or head, liver or reins,
Cannot but by annihilation die;
Nor in their liquid texture mortal wound
Receive, no more than can the fluid air:
All heart they live, all head, all eye, all ear,
All intellect, all sense, and as they please,
They limb themselves, and color, shape or size
Assume, as likes them best, condense or rare.”

The passage comes from book six. Raphael, one of the archangels, is telling Adam about the battle in Heaven between the pro-God forces and Satan + his soon-to-be-fallen angels. Essentially, it’s pointless — since they’re all celestial beings, none of the angels can seriously wound each other. Here, Raphael is explaining how their angelic anatomy allows them to quickly recover from their wounds. If you’re curious how the battle ends (spoiler alert, again), the Son drives Satan and his companions out of Heaven on a fiery chariot. They plummet through Chaos into Hell. It’s pretty great.

This passage has been tickling my art-nerd brain ever since I read it — what would muscles, fibers, and bones that form as freely as the “fluid air” look like? For every little part of a body to be independently and fully alive? And part of a single being?

Well, here’s my best guess:

For now, I’m working through these studies one section of the body at a time. The first is an angel torso, the second angel legs. Both are pen and ink (microns, to be exact). I’ve been starting with studies of regular human anatomy, then distorting them to fit Milton’s description. Here are the corresponding regular human studies:

I’ve also worked up an angel torso on Procreate. The idea was to think through how these studies might eventually work as paintings (color, brushwork, etc.).

I’ll be doing more studies in the coming weeks with pen and ink, Procreate, and, eventually, real-life oils. Stay tuned here and on Instagram to see more. Thanks so much for reading! Keep creating and have a great week.